Sometimes I Act Like a Brat

Gods unconditional love leads me to a life of joy and repentance.

Haha this season can be a whirlwind huh?
Look at my firecracker 2 year old in the back of this picture. 🤣🤣 I just love my babies and I love being home with them.

I’ll be honest some days are harder than others. Shoot, every day is hard but sometimes I choose joy and sometimes… I’m kind of a brat. 🤦🏻‍♀️

I want my way. I want my prayers answered fast.
I want.. I want… I want..
ya know what I mean?

Just like a 2 year old I can throw a fit sometimes and in turn feel like I too get caught in the whirlwind.
And last night I did…. 💔
I was frustrated.
Budget was spent for Christmas but I wanted to buy more. Give more. And frankly get something for my husband.

I was so down…. and over what?!!!
So many people are dying, suffering in pain, have no food or a warm home, griefing the loss of a loved one…
and I was walking around yesterday evening pouting for what?!! More stuff?!!! 😤

“My goodness, get over yourself Molly!”
This is what I kept thinking… and “God help me out of this selfish thought life!!”
I was so ashamed.

I went to pick up some pictures and I saw so many people from my church.
One person said “that sounds just like Molly!”
she smiled at me with the sweetest face.
I could have cried. The way she looked at me was who I wanted to be in that moment but my heart is so dang ugly! I smiled but inside I felt like the Grinch.
Do you ever feel this way?

I know I should be vacuuming my floors right now but man, I just know others are struggling too and I want the Lord to heal these wounds in our hearts.
We have to choose healing because we just have to live free, y’all!

Stick with me for one more minute please…💕

This morning I was almost in tears as I checked my Plexus account. Ya know… my bratty self was complaining about money and a surprise bonus was in my account.. $195! 😭😭😭
(Just hold up before you think I’m going to talk ALL about Plexus… 😉)

Here I am again humbled. Why in the world do we think for EVEN ONE second that the Lord will not provide for our needs and the needs of so many others around us?
Why do we act like brats?

His word says “And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:19‬

I needed that reality check yesterday. I needed to see how ugly my heart can be so that I will be obedient and serve as the Lord has called me to serve…. WITH GLADNESS!
I’m actually thankful the Lord showed me my sin.

My intention is to share my struggle here so that maybe someone else struggling would get out of that “bratty” way of living and just get out and GIVE!
Get out and LOVE!!!
Stop being a Grinch about buying and giving…
just do whatever you do FOR JESUS!!!

“Whether, then, you eat or drink or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.”
‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭10:31‬ ‭

“AND YOU SHALL LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, AND WITH ALL YOUR SOUL, AND WITH ALL YOUR MIND, AND WITH ALL YOUR STRENGTH.’ The second is this, ‘Y OU SHALL LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.””
‭‭Mark‬ ‭12:30-31‬ ‭

God sent His one and only son on CHRISTMAS! He was born to die FOR US! 😭😭
Wow… even me. Just let that sink in…🙌🏼🙌🏼❤️
GLORY TO GOD!!

“But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid; for behold, I bring you good news of great joy which will be for all the people; for today in the city of David there has been born for you a Savior, who is Christ the Lord.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭2:10-11‬ ‭

Can we just stop wanting all the things for a second and reach out to our neighbors, community, family and church in real NEED?!! Can we be THE LIGHT OF JESUS IN THE DARK this season?
Yes. Yes we can with the help of Jesus.
Because I sure know that anything good in me is all Him.

I’m so thankful Jesus looks at me like that girl did from my church. He loves me for who He made me to be. Flaws and all. ❤️❤️❤️

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